Wednesday, November 19, 2008
So,
what have I been up to?
Sorry that I haven't been updating. I'm no longer addicted to blogging like how I used to (errr back then I couldn't survive without a day of updating this site. HAHA exaggerated, but uhhh you get my point.. :] heh)
OMG I MISS THOSE DAYS BACK IN CEDAR.
This is really random, because I'm honestly enjoying my life in the United States anyway. But still, those memories in Cedar are locked in a secret corner deep inside my heart, and no one can take that away from me. Heh.
Recess gang! Where have you guys disappeared to??? I still want to queue up for Bak Chor Mee! HAHA. Kiasu like hell, but do we even care? :)
Yeah, so I've been tied down with lots of work lately. Last minute work, I mean. Haha. But finally I'm done with this midterms for this week. Two nights full of accounting is way draining. But who the hell cares, I'm done with it! HOHO. Even though I still have another midterm to go, uhhhhhh. Mood spoiler.
Okay.
So Kum's birthday was on the 16th last week.
HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYY~! Hahaha even though this entry is kinda expired, it's the thought that counts. Hehhehehe I hope you enjoyed yourself.
Don't be emo anymore okay. Let's make the best out of this last month together. With "FAMILY". HAHA. (I can't believe I finally got to accept the fact that I actually have a FAMILY here omg -_-)
Picts up! :)
KUM's Birthday!:
See! Kum is the most popular girl in school. Just take a look at the number of people present during her birthday surprise. Tsk tsk. How can I not be proud to have such a roomate like her??? HAHAHA.(She's going to kill me for this. O ow.)
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AND.
SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA SCREAM OUT LOUD.
Or maybe run away to Highway 9 and freeze myself in the midst of the chilly wind.
Blank my mind and diffuse those negative thoughts away.
I wish I could just stop thinking so much.
Stop reading too deeply into simple things that might actually virtually mean nothing, nothing at all.
And ignore the impact others might suffer due to the selfish me.
I'm too ignorant.
Too insensible.
Too self-centered, oblivious, insensitive.
If only I could just rewind back time.
If only I could press backspace.
Delete everything.
Remove it to the trash folder.
Stuck.
Caught in the middle.
Superficial laughter, artificial smiles and absurd thoughts.
So hollow. Empty. Meaningless.
Eventually all will boil down to nothingness.
My weakness is that I care too much.
I can't seem to stop hurting others.
And indirectly inflicting pain onto myself at the same time too.
I keep holding back.
One question:
Have you ever regretted knowing me?
9:02 AM Tjung!
